I was told by a customer at work that I am pretty. She was an older lady, but it still felt good to have someone compliment me. But it was also awkward because it was so random. I haven't been feeling too pretty lately, so that picked me up a wee bit. 

Since the semester has started for me it means more time away from my girl. Luckily, a good friend got her a used iPod for her birthday so we FaceTime on my long days.  It is very hard to wake up and get her ready for school, drop her off at her classroom, and know I won't be able to cuddle or play games with her until the following day. This week will suck because of that. Tomorrow is a short day, I just work. Tuesday is a long day, I get her ready and drop her off, and by the time I get home she is asleep. Wednesday I have to be at work at 7:30 am, so that means I won't be able o spend time with her until I get home from work, and then I have a night class. Thursday is another long day, but I am off on Friday. 

People always try to encourage me and remind me that it is only temporary, but it still doesn't make it better. It's still hard. I know it will pay off in the end, but it doesn't lighten the blow. While the ones who are always trying to remind me of how great it is for our (Desi and I) future they are able to tuck their kids in a night and/or be there for breakfast.

A couple more years, and hopefully I am done with HAVING to go to school AND work.

Love.

Time for a change.

I have been single for nearly 6 years. Before I found out that I was with child, the baby daddy and I had a huge break up. I haven't dated, wasn't really open to dating, and definitely was not looking. There have only been a few men that has caught my eye, but I never tried to pursue any of them.

One reason why I haven't put myself out there is because I have a daughter. I just don't want to have different men in and out of my life, and she think that's the way to live.....although, she wouldn't meet anyone I date unless I know it's something serious. But the main reason why I never put myself out there is because I lacked the confidence. I never really dress up, and barely buy myself nice things. I picked up quite a few pounds and really just let myself go.

I am not getting any younger.

I have decided to start putting more effort into looking nice and putting myself on the market again. There is no reason for me to continue on with this long drawn out pity party I have been having. Life happens, but I must keep pushing. I have learned that no one will love and respect me and I don't first love and respect me.

No excuses.
Time for a change.
Love.

I have been MIA

I have been in and out of this funk for the past 4ish months. Granted, my life could be way worse off, but it definitely has me down. My mom became very ill at the beginning of this year, and that alone did a number on me. I did not get accepted to any of the three schools that I had applied to. Desi randomly had another seizure. I haven't been working a lot lately, which means little income (and searching for another job hasn't been the easiest task). The whole task of being a single mom from doctors appointments to school shindigs to me having to leave her to go to school/work. And then, my baby started kindergarten! I don't know who the heck told her it's ok to grow up so fast, but I have to bone to pick with that person!

I have been struggling with the decision to move back to KY or not. This is big, and definitely something that I can't jump and do. It takes a lot of thought and planning. One part of me thinks it's a good idea and another part of me is saying shouting "DON'T DO IT!"

I have to consider the environment that my girl would be in.....is it worth it in the end? I don't know.

I am positive that life will become a little easier for me!

Love.