Sometimes I wake up and think "Wow, I ruined my life." Not because I had a child, because she is the reason why I live, but because of the OTHER decisions I've made. Choosing a guy over school was the most ridiculous thing ever. I definitely created a detour in my life. I wasn't focused at all. Didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, where I wanted to be, and could care less at that point in my life. I was solely focused on one thing, and that was a guy.
My family is extremely awesome though, I pretty much always have a baby sitter. When I need them, they have my back, always. So technically I'm not completely alone in this. But I am so ready for that next step in my life! The point where I move out....The day when complete independence hits. Although, I don't expect it to be walk in the park.
The point of this isn't to really be a negative Nancy, but to get a point across...Haha.
As a single mom, life can be extremely stressful at times! *You know, I don't see how people can work soooo much and spend little time with their children. Cuddle time and kissies are very important to me.* Anywho, I am spending a lot less time at school and more time home this semester. I do think its helped my girl's behavior a little and sometimes she seems to still get separation anxiety or something. She's told my mom and I several times that she don't want me to go to work or school. :( But you know, considering the 100% financial responsibility that I have over her and my semi shopping addiction I have to what I have to do.
Sometimes I get stressed, overwhelmed, and sad....I get all of the above thoughts in my head...but then I think about our future. Where I want to be in a few years. I think about the life I want to provide Desi. The example I want to set for her.
My point? I know I am not the only single momma, or parent in general that gets stressed out, overwhelmed, and depressed. We will have our days, it's inevitable. But remember why you work so hard! Look at what you have accomplished, not what you could have or should have accomplished. Never get down on the things you could/should have done, but put your energy into the things you can do...what you WILL do!
And always follow your heart and listen to your instinct.
My family is extremely awesome though, I pretty much always have a baby sitter. When I need them, they have my back, always. So technically I'm not completely alone in this. But I am so ready for that next step in my life! The point where I move out....The day when complete independence hits. Although, I don't expect it to be walk in the park.
The point of this isn't to really be a negative Nancy, but to get a point across...Haha.
As a single mom, life can be extremely stressful at times! *You know, I don't see how people can work soooo much and spend little time with their children. Cuddle time and kissies are very important to me.* Anywho, I am spending a lot less time at school and more time home this semester. I do think its helped my girl's behavior a little and sometimes she seems to still get separation anxiety or something. She's told my mom and I several times that she don't want me to go to work or school. :( But you know, considering the 100% financial responsibility that I have over her and my semi shopping addiction I have to what I have to do.
Sometimes I get stressed, overwhelmed, and sad....I get all of the above thoughts in my head...but then I think about our future. Where I want to be in a few years. I think about the life I want to provide Desi. The example I want to set for her.
My point? I know I am not the only single momma, or parent in general that gets stressed out, overwhelmed, and depressed. We will have our days, it's inevitable. But remember why you work so hard! Look at what you have accomplished, not what you could have or should have accomplished. Never get down on the things you could/should have done, but put your energy into the things you can do...what you WILL do!
And always follow your heart and listen to your instinct.
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